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Everyone Needs A #MonthofMe

Everyone needs a #MonthofMe

#MonthofMe

They call it Pisces season, the final days of winter and the ushering in of spring. For me it’s my Birthday month and a period that for the past few years I’ve labeled the #MonthofMe. Initially this was just a cute way to indulge in Birthday celebration antics well beyond the usual few days most people give towards their special day. With time this has evolved into much more then reason to drink & socialize more although that does happen. It’s really become a space for me to sit down look at myself and examine who I am, what I stand for and am I doing what I need to do to move towards where I want to be. It’s also I time that I stop and look at those around me and measure the input and output of energies between us.

As my personal new year begins I’m now 34. Surprisingly a number of folk don’t believe this so I’m happy for that but in all seriousness there is another phase of life I want to enter and everything I do now has to result in preparing for that. I’m in no rush for a family but there is an increasing awareness to that end goal related to the work I’m doing now as I chart my course in life. There are mountains I need to get past and goals I need to reach. Recent interactions with specific people have really shown me a lot about myself regarding my mental and emotion ability to adapt to situations.

In addition I’m grasping and understanding certain powers and forces that I need to be careful with in how I apply them. It’s all pretty trippy to be honest. I’m a long way from that skinny shy kid with glass back in Jefferson Elementary School.

I honestly think the #MonthofMe concept should be embraced by all. Stop for a moment and think to the last time you worried solely about yourself. Not in a selfish manner but when was the last time you got up and said today will be all about me? We get so caught up in the rat race that we can go massive lengths of time with treating ourselves. I’m a reformed member of #TeamNoSleep. Be clear that that lifestyle will kill you eventually.  Embrace rest, embrace stillness and quiet. Build it into your schedule and lock it in as you would any other vital meeting or appointment.

When the #MonthofMe ends I ideally want to be refreshed in myself, my direction and my relationships. My 30’s have injected new life into me that I didn’t expect in the form of Nomadness. The way the Tribe randomly reaches out with words and expressions of love and support is something I often struggle to put into words. I’m truly not worthy. There have been others to step up and in their own ways earn a special place with me. There are people who I’ve known for years that I want to link back up with. I need and want to know where I stand with those that matter to me. Spring cleaning is another element of the #MonthofMe

Call it what you want but I truly hope you all invest the same time and energy for yourselves that the world asks of you for so many other things. You all deserve it/ Not just for a month but life. Get back to putting you at the front of the line.

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Hip Hop Zombies or My Night @ The Power 105 Breakfast Club Anniversary

Hip Hop Zombies or My Night @ The Power 105 Breakfast Club Anniversary

No good music
From the Blog Closet Originally posted December 21th 2011
**Here’s a throwback from my night at a Power 105 party that left me quite underwhelmed**

On the heels of this past sunday nights Hot 97 Wu Tang show I found myself again at the Best Buy Theater Monday night for the Power 105 1 yr Anniversary show. I knew going in this it would be a very different crowd then what I was a part of the previous night. Where as the other NY Hip Hop station warmed up the crowd with classics paying tribute to Heavy D, J Dilla, Guru and more, this so was quite literally a RADIO party as generic ass “hits” were played and forcefully hyped up by Dj Self. Hell after awhile Self decided to let someone else DJ while he got his momentary shine on running around the stage with the mic dancing and what not. No there was no showing of actual DJ skills this night.

Anyway they then had French Montana open up…………..

No good music

yeah exactly……
Then 2 Chains who I will continue to call Titty Boy came on next. I consider him strictly entertainment so it was cute as his current “Gettin’ it” joint rang out.

Finally, Wale came out and honestly gave a solid performance and Meek MIlls closed it out. No Ross appearance or any other real surprises

What made the biggest impact on me with the lack of emotion of this audience. It was clearly a younger crowd. It was the crowd of people who honestly only listen the radio for their hip hop. They react to the “hot” singles for a few moments then you have to change to a song cuz their attention has been lost already. Currently popular songs were played 2-3 just to get some reaction from them.

Understand that I just was in the same building as the Wu had the crowd insane performing FULL SONGS!!!!! The new generation was on full display and it was a poor representation. Hip Hop needs heart and emotion not the blind lemming like trance of the people today. I love this culture too much and as I watched the show even my boys and the women around noticed my dissatisfaction. This is the same reason I dont bother with Summer Jam anymore…..

I think I need to get to a Common show to relight the fire….

Power Trippin’ It’s All Human Nature

Power Trippin’ It’s All Human Nature Power Trippin From the Blog Closet Originally posted October 13th 2011

Sitting back I glance at the television, 40+ inches of HD details makes the images so clear…..so there’s no avoiding the vile things airing on networks ranging from ESPN to CNN. The faces of Power, Good, Bad and the Ugly are everywhere. I observe things. I’m a people watcher 24/7. Those I deal with personally and those I see from a distance. There is a consistency of how power and/or the attempts to gain power effect people. Some folk gain power through their infectious spirit. They stand for something and the force of their will attracts those of a like mind. This can result in the formation of local tribes, cults, religions, government,etc….There does come a point where a leader or a group hit that power ceiling. The ceiling is the point where power is manageable yet still within the checks and balances of the people below. Unfortunately, few people are satisfied with the ceiling. They crash through it showering sharp glass and debris on the people they are supposed to be working with and for.

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Penn State Supporter shows loyalty of just fired coach and town Icon Joe Paterno a midst growing scandal.

This past week brought us the horrible and still unfolding story of sexual abuse over the past decade at Penn State University. One man’s monstrous actions against the most fragile members of society and just as bad was the college cover up and protection for all those but the kids. Coaches and teachers placing the well being of children below the desire to maintain a school’s reputation. A parent’s Nightmare come true, being played out on the national stage.

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Introduction to Me……Update

Introduction to Me……Update

From the Blog Closet Originally posted October 5th 2010

I’m aware that for many this their first real exposure to me in the blogging realm so that selection from the blog closet with a self Introduction post from a photo challenge in 2010. Maybe you’ll learn something you didn’t know about me. I’ll add updates in Italics where applicable.

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Introduction
Basic Info + Q&A

Name
Jason…Nightfall…..Blu Flame…..BlacC Yankee..etc…etc….

Birthplace
New Rochelle, NY

Nationality
Antigua (West Indies)

Height/Weight
6 ft 4 220 lbs

Age
29 (now 32)

Interests
Music, comics, sports, fitness, writing/blogging

How do you deal with someone very close to you hurting you?
Stuck it up and move on with life…….I may have to take a few steps away from them depending on what was done and if this

What are you’re pet peeves?
Controllable double standards. I don’t like having expectations, rules or anything applied to me that same person is willing to accept.

Would you truly respect, value, and marry a woman like those you post in your weekly hump day blogs? Some claim to have morals and call themselves free spirits, they meditate, and are just sexual but what do you really think from a Christian perspective?
All cases vary on the person. I don’t judge until I’m given enough valid info to do so. Now in regards to hump day I’ve posted an array of female types depending on my mood.

Long story short yes I could respect and value them if their personalities are on point. When I used to promote I was around models, dancers, etc… and many were great people.

As far as marriage I honestly couldn’t say. A ton goes into marriage so it’s not impossible but depends on a number of variables.

Why do you never smile in any pictures?
lol.I dont know. It’s not intentional. (I’m still working on this)

Favorite drink? Favorite food?
Got a a few of those too. Cognac, Sex on the Beach, Call-a-Cab. Foods I’d say soul foods, Thai food, Spanish food.

Whats your favorite color? song? vacation spot?
Blue……I have a few fav. songs……………Miami and the Virgin Islands.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
5 yrs…um engaged or married…..maybe with a child. (I guess I have 2 yrs to make this happen huh? lol)

Now that you know me more come link up with me on Twitter via @Trueomeganexus and please link my FB page. You can do so right on the right side on this page. Thanks.

Where Did The Love Go??

Where Did The Love Go??
From the Blog Closet Originally posted June 18th 2012

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Been meaning to write this for a quite awhile now. “Inspiration” though was never lacking……I’m getting thoughts off my mind about the effects of love on my people. From my simple vantage point I observe so much. 99% of the time I do so in silence. We’re all adults here so at this point of my life I let folk do what they do. I’ve posted before that love is the most powerful force of Earth, but I’m also thinking that Fear doesn’t rank too far below it. The fear of being alone, that seems to be so much at the heart of the thing I’m seeing recently. Tale after tale, story upon story of unqualified lames and lowlifes, grown man wannabes and pretenders being chosen by women who deserve better….who know better. None lacking for intelligence, self respect or common sense yet stoically I look upon the events that play out without a shred of surprise.

What transformed yesterdays “love of her life” into today’s bane of a her existence. Such changes happen more often then I can count. Was he that vile being to begin with and merely put on an awarding winning acting performance? Was he genuinely a good guy that was somehow twisted into this new person by events I’m not privy to? I mean its also true that after a certain point you can’t merely blame the “other” person. You put enough unsuccessful social dealings on your record and you have to look into that mirror and re-evaluate what you bring to the problem, who you interact with, who you attract, etc…..

Maybe it’s the Summer season and emotions are hot and heavy but the “interesting” interactions and questionable moves are at an all time high. Russian roulette within the sheets, jumping off a cliff with a “Love” umbrella hopeful it will slow down your descent. You see this isn’t about judgement. This isn’t anything I take joy in being right about. I HATE seeing my people, especially my female friends hurt and distraught. But I’m a realist and I can’t cry and sob when decisions lack a certain degree of common sense. No, love has no blueprint or official game plan but the sky is still blue, water is still wet and we as people are given enough to make better decisions then I witness. Is the fear of being alone that over powering? Does it really allow you to over look the disrespect, abuse, lies, violence and hope against hope that things work out? What are the standards and requirements applied to being that man? Your Man? Or is it something that just sounds nice to proclaim. I’ve seen it work and I’ve seen it fail. Happiness does have certain requirements and in truth everyone doesn’t have it.

At times I wish I could just beat the life out of these guys…….would definitely be a bit therapeutic. Or better yet I just wish my folks success to failure ratio would balance off a little more…..

Look What You’ve Made Me (Black Man In America)

From the Blog Closet Originally posted April 29th 2012

Look What You’ve Made Me (Black Man in America)

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It’s funny what one conversation can do to/for you. Having a casual chat with good company then finding yourself in a personal moment of self examination and deep perspective change.

Let’s set the stage a bit. I’m a 31 yr old man……a Black Man……..a Black Man in America. That’s what I am. It is not all that I am but if you ask me how I view myself then that’s what you’ll get. That comes with much good, much bad, much ugly. To this point in my life everyone I’ve dealt with understood what that means without need of explanation or clarification. In my world pre Toronto, that was just how it was. There was never a questioning of that. Issues of race come up all the time but always with the understanding of where I was coming from. As America’s 1st Black President prepares for re-election season, the nation’s racial tensions have been on an extreme wave that I’ve never seen before….case in point Trayvon Martin. Trayvon’s name sparks those sensitive convo’s pretty consistently. That was the case last Saturday…..
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“Never mix business with pleasure”

From the Blog Closet Originally posted April 12th 2012
“Never mix business with pleasure”

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That’s what we’re told right? For years that made perfect sense to me and in truth it still does but as I look around I wonder if a change in how social relationships are developing is resulting in the need to adjust this rule. As so many of the women I know look up to and aim for Will & Jada or Jay & Bey like relationships, it strikes me that these folk are all about the interlocked paths of business and pleasure.

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Blog Closet

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As I get set up on this new blog I’ll routinely post older content from my blogging past. They’ll be stored in the category “Blog Closet.” It’s a great way to get familiar with me and some of what I’ve done over the previous yrs.